Yeah okay, the last 2 or 3 months have been pretty full on if it comes to unlayering my onion so to speak!
You know, the many layers, like an onions layers, that cover up your soul and potential. Well... I am digging deep and hard! Fact of the matter is that I have been on and off doing that for a couple of years now. I entered the path a long time ago, but now it is getting unavoidable. Which is really good and pretty darn tough sometimes!
About a year after me giving birth I started experiencing monthly migraines, a week after my period had started. I did experience migraines before, but never this frequent. There was a message there! and a collapsed uturus and a stuck ovary. Which lead me to an chinese doctor (herbs and acupuncture) at first and a specialised osteopath later (and still). I had osteo done before, but never this kind... I wasn't ready for all these emotions being unlocked! Yes yes yes, the layers of the onion are finally being touched, moved and letting go off! But what a hell of a job. It really is hard work!
Thing with me (and I guess with many others as well) is that my 'controlling' part is pretty strong and has taken over most of me. Sounds weird to you? That's fine. If you want further explaining, let me know? Now, after about 3 treatments, yoga and meridian chi kung, I am really seeing/feeling when and where the control part kicks in, but so far I haven't been able to do anything about it. It is like it paralizes the rest of me. Truly taking over. So what do you do??? My osteo told me to be patient and keep doing what I am doing. Ha! being patient is not one of my core qualities and indeed be an answer to some of the issues.
So I am unpatiently trying to be patient. Feeling restless on and off. Tara Stiles just Tweeted (http://twitter.com/TaraStiles) something to remember: What are you holding onto that's holding you back? Honest meditation will show you. Up to you what to do about it.
So, if you'll excuse me, I'll go into honest meditation right now!
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